Like many out there who start on the journey of BDSM, I too got caught up with the mass fantasy of female domination, the fetishes, the sexy clothing and makeup and all the trappings of the femdom lifestyle. When one is inexperienced in any given field, it is usually the superficial trappings that attract one to it. When enough time and experience is accumulated then one of three things happen; either we see that after some time it isn't what we wanted and leave all together, or we realize that the superficial stuff is enough to keep us content and we stay there or we continue onwards realizing that the superficial external stuff is nice, but there is the real experience that is more important. In BDSM, i too was attracted by women in leather, whipping away at slaves and making them kiss their feet.
The various dommes that came and went in my life were good in their own right, but stuck in the superficial. Many times I'd submit to a domme and they were clearly not as intelligent, not as comfortable being dominant or had other reasons to dominate like needing money. Along with that are all the buzz words used by both subs, slaves and dom/dommes like female supremacy, mind control, financial domination and with each person those take on different definitions.
When I submitted to Mistress Shola, I too jumped on that word Female Supremacy and thought I truly believed in that concept that I felt all women were superior to me. Even though past experience showed that I'd be in love with the idea of being dominated by a female and then the euphoria would end just like any honeymoon and then the reality would never be enough for me to stick around. A very good reason that I'd jump from one domme to another and sometimes have multiple on the go. I believed in female supremacy as long as it fit my fantasy and ideals.
With Mistress Shola, i did initially upon meeting her for the first time cheat on her with other dommes and typically She'd be another obscure domme in a huge list of dommes i'd served to serve my own needs and leave. She was different, even when I left Her, She was on my mind. It took me a while to get back to serving Her and relinquishing my privacy in exchange for my submission to Her. As time went on and my submission turned into slavery, I realized a transformation within me where I found my needs where secondary to Mistress Sholas. My journey into bdsm was turning from superficial clothing to changing my mind, my thoughts and the way i was seeing things. It is at this point I sat down and thought that I have experienced submission and slavery at the hands of Mistress Shola and there is no shadow of a doubt that She is my superior, i am truly Her slave and She has taken me from what i was to someone who not only knows what slavery is, but experienced it. Why couldn't other women do that? What is it about Mistress Shola that enslaved me to Her that is lacking in other women? That question I think only Mistress Shola can answer as to what She did with me.
Out of all this I realized that I cannot truly believe in female supermacy as not all women are created equal. Female Supremacy would mean that everyone of the female gender would be superior to me and for all intents and purposes be able to enslave me like Mistress Shola did. This was not my experience.
I am not a believer in female supremacy. I am a believer in Mistress Shola's supremacy over me.
